I don't even know what my question is but I'd like feedback anyway?

I had a friend who spent exactly 6 months in Thailand and he loved it. I would suggest not running from your problems though. I did that once & it didn't help. I came back to the same existence. Anyway, whatever you did to piss that guy off must have been pretty bad. His lack of response means that he really wants nothing to do with you. Don't read into it & think he "can't handle it". He just doesn't want you. Sorry.